Final Reflections
Being the webmaster for this site was a very humbling experience
in that I realized the strength and richness of other programs. If I had
completely focused only on my own classroom, I know that I could have celebrated
it far more completely. As it was, I seemed to be pulled into each of the other
classrooms vicariously, appreciating and living in that moment to the neglect of
my own program's experiences. I know that what is written for my program is a
shallow litany of intermittent events, whereas in in reality, it was far more
rich and far more interesting than it seems here.
I came to a dichotomy, once again, in reflective practice -
between knowing and wanting what is the right thing to do for children and being
unable to do it. Having an emergent curriculum, that is, following the lead of
the children, depends on flexibility and spontaneity. Many times I was able to
implement rich literacy experiences, especially with text - fiction and
non-fiction. But response time to create beautiful poems and pocket chart
activities was not there. I wanted to extend their learning and experience in
this area, but time ran by too quickly. "Run, run, as fast as you can, You
can't catch me,..." Operating two full classes that were demanding and
challenging ate away at my creativity and energy resources needed to prepare
materials.
By the end of the year, I realized what a golden opportunity I
had missed with the exceptional parent help I had this year. They are so
committed to the quality of this program, that they would have helped me prepare
anything I needed. This is an area that I intend to improve on in the next few
years.
I believe that this web site offers so much encouragement for
kindergarten teachers everywhere, because of its simplicity and honesty. These
summaries are not the "theoretical" of the ideologists, nor the
"prescriptive" narrative of the publishers. These literacy events
happened in classrooms and they were successful. I believe this web site will
encourage other teachers to trust themselves more and not be swayed by the push
and pull of others.
Involving the children in this web site development became an
unrealistic hope and dream. The reality of a kindergarten day is that there is
not enough time to coach individual children to input ideas with technology. We
are forced to use more generalized and prescriptive types of technology because
of time.
This site will continue to develop as ideas walk across our
paths once again, and I would welcome any suggestions to help it become more
user friendly.
Carol
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